Parables of B – Invitations

What am I being invited to release in order to do this?

Expectations. Releasing expectations is so real for me and it’s funny because I am supporting a dear friend of mine through her process of Yoga Teacher Training and this is what we discuss.

We all reflect back to each other the things we need to see you know? If someone reflects love and kindness back to me, maybe it’s because I need to see the love and kindness within myself. Wow. I’ve never thought of it that way so explicitly before because I’ve always learned it like…

If something that someone does bothers you it’s because you actually do that thing yourself and this is something you need to address within you. But what if it’s that you are receiving goodness, kindness, love, abundance, etc. That must mean that you are reflecting that and you have that within yourself.

EVEN IF IT DOESN’T FEEL LIKE IT. Boom Beezy. Even if it doesn’t feel like it. Kindness begets kindness. Generosity begets generosity. I have been obsessing over if I am generous or not. Obsessing over it.

I am also listening to an audio version of The Book of Joy. It is the beautiful story of a meeting of the Dalai Lama and Archbishop Desmond Tutu. Absolutely incredible. They met in India to have a series of conversations about joy. It’s been such an incredible journey to listen to these men talk about joy because they have so much lived experience. They can simplify an entire life into a sentence in a way – when they relay their lessons learned and beliefs when it comes to joy. So I love listening to it because it offers me perspective that I truly value.

So yes … I feel like there are times where I don’t feel like I am doing a certain thing or being a certain way and then because of that I cannot see that what I am receiving is a direct reflection of that thing. I want to start noticing.

So that means releasing expectations, releasing limiting beliefs and fears that I am not the way I want to be. AND START NOTICING WHAT I ATTRACT AND RECEIVE. That looks harsh eh?

And start noticing what I am attracting and receiving. I am proud of myself. I had to make a certain amount of money in this past week to cover my expenses. Well actually a certain amount of money by October 1 to cover my expenses. And I’ve surpassed that amount as of yesterday. It feels good. I hope that it may continue.

So who is around me and what do they make me feel you know? That is what I want to replace in my mind. So it means releasing expectations that I have to be a certain way. Releasing expectations, pressure, beliefs – ultimately releasing anything which draws its origins from fear.

I have been reading a book by Brian Weiss called Miracles Happen. It’s about past life regressions. I really wonder about all of that. I really really wonder about it. Like have I had past lives? Do I resonate with them? What am I healing from? Do I believe in it? So I read books like these because I want to read stories of other people who have experienced it. I want to know.

It’s a fascinating thing. The word release though. The word seems so simple but in fact it’s layered and magnified and compact.

I am working on a new project to organize my life in a way that leaves as much space as possible for me to be present without “things to do” and in a way that facilitates me being able to be present in everything I choose to do as well. I love this because it has given me an opportunity to chat with someone whose skill I trust to help me develop this. It has also allowed me to articulate something that feels really poignant to me…

…that I like things to end up simple, spacious and compact.

I realized that maybe spacious and compact don’t go together but actually now I know they do. If something is compact, layered, deep, considered with care – then it can be presented in a simple way with loads of space around it. Loads of space around it to unpack things if you want to.

So I realized that the process of things getting messy, loads of details, considering all the options, that is a part of how I have been in the world. And I think it’s a part of how I’d like to continue to be in the world. On purpose. Learning, experiencing, considering all the options and then drawing down the ones that feel aligned, making things more compact. Leaving space for me to be. Leaving space for things to come and go.

I wonder how that will work. Where does the space belong?

I want so badly to experience these things that some of these people experience in their stories. Witnessing angels, seeing angels, feeling spirits, receiving messages, past-life regressions. I want to witness the thinness of the veil because it seems to provide such relief for people.

I think I am on my way. I hope that I will be able to release my chokehold on this material life and plane and humanity in this one and only form that I know it. May I experience the relief and a deepening of my faith in the spiritual nature of everything that is.

Releasing the chokehold. Releasing the grip. On everything. Open hands, hope heart. Flexible spine, flexible mind (thanks to Tamira McGillivray for this one).

Talk soon,

 

B-

 

** Photo credit to the talented Marisa Melito

Past/Present/Future Parables

Octavia’s Parables :Parable of the Sower Podcast

What is your relationship to the stars?

What is your relationship to change?

What is your positive obsession?

What are your recurring dreams?

 

Tarot for the Wild Soul:

What am I being invited to come home to within myself?

How can I fully embrace this homecoming?

What am I being invited to release in order to do this?

What is supporting me in this sacred work?

Where am I on my Soul’s journey at this moment?

How am I being asked to be of service at this time?

 

Chani Nicholas:

Consider what you’d like to learn about yourself through this retrograde and set an intention to do so.

Watch what makes your blood boil, what makes you want to take shortcuts, and watch yourself when you want to take on extra projects.

 

 

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Parables of B – Homecoming

How can I fully embrace this homecoming?

I am tired today. Very tired. Yesterday was a huge day and took a lot out of me. I realized that setting intentions and seeing them and accepting them as delivered… as real and as true… it’s hard for me and it takes a lot out of me LOL. Resistance is EXHAUSTING my friends. (Also that sentence with all the dots was even more of a mess before I re-read LOL that’s how tired I am.)

So that brings me to this question – how can I fully embrace this homecoming? I am coming home to my truth. Coming home to what’s inside. The true abundance and faith and pleasure and joy and this compassionate and full way of being and serving the world.

How can I fully embrace this homecoming? Faith. I feel like what I want to do is LESS. LOL do less. More rest, more reading, more coloring. More learning. It’s like… less inside the head and more with my body and soul. It’s happening for sure.

Yesterday was a true testament to that. But I also feel like I want to keep learning so I can keep sharing. To keep being in spaces and opportunities where I can learn and grow so I can continue to deepen my offerings.

Meditation for you is born. Find your Focus this Fall is out in the world. And I am wanting to be separate from it but also all I want to do is talk about it. LOL it’s a weird feeling. Ultimately resistance is separation. So that’s what that is. That’s showing up for me. Self-sabotage, not feeling like I am enough.

I am understanding how to build awareness and I am building that awareness now. The first step really. It’s just crazy to feel like I am at the FIRST STEP lol because I feel like I’ve been on this journey for a long time and I’ve been in my own life for almost 30 years now.

But yes, rest and reading. Learning and improving. Here are the things I want to read about and learn about:

  • Financial literacy – paying off debts, increasing cash flow, investing and building assets
  • Astrology – natal chart interpretation, planets and their meanings and how to understand planetary transits
  • Yoga – the ancient texts – the Sutras, the Upanishads, Vedas and the Bhagavad Gita
  • Meditation – the differences between Buddhist and Vedic/Hindu meditation – how meditation is used in Yoga
  • Piano – I want to continue to read music, play songs, play the piano pick up skills
  • Two Can Do – deepening my creative practice and allowing myself to research the origins of some of my influences

These things I really want to learn about. I like to do them with people. I like to learn alone and also I like to learn with other people. I want to learn from people who know more than me. I want to learn from people who know things in their own way so that I can experience my own way too.

I want to put rest back into my calendar. Because it frames my mind. This is what works for me. Framing my mind. It just works. And I actually feel that it’s connected to yoga. Because the process of living yoga is the process of stilling the mind. So I think first giving myself specific frames helps to still my mind because anything that doesn’t fit in the frame goes. And the frame still entertains infinite possibilities. That is a fact because one tiny thing is actually infinite. Which is AMAZING and also mind-blowing lol.

So how can I embrace this homecoming fully … by scheduling rest into my calendar. I am going to do that now, today. Today I will do that. I love being here and I love writing this. I love to be here with myself. Especially this morning. I haven’t even opened the curtains yet. It’s so nice to feel that because I have been waking up and doing a lot these days. Which also feels good. I suppose I am just grateful for this moment right now.

Rest. It feels restful. I am watching a show called the Duchess. I feel like I need to allow my intentions to be revealed you know? I feel like I have done the work of putting it out there. I am always skeptical with myself about if I am clear enough though … there’s still this part of me that’s like yeah but if you don’t SAYYYY the right thing it’s not going to work. So I think that’s still me trying to control in a way – feeling that I have ultimate control over things when I don’t. But allowing myself to be tricked into thinking I do by thinking that the way I say something is going to make the outcome magically different.

Hmm… still sticky. But yes I think fully embracing this homecoming is sending myself love whenever I can. Here’s something simple and tangible that I want to do. Whenever I touch, brush, wash, massage my hair I want to repeat loving and positive affirmations to myself. And the same with my face. I realized that those are times when I go into autopilot and who knows what the heck I am thinking about or saying to myself. So I want to do that. And I want to start using a couple of mudras as well. I also want to notice what I think about in the shower.

Those are definitely a way to start. I am sending so much love out into the universe right now.

Talk soon,

 

B-

 

** Photo credit goes to me and my good old selfie timer.

 

Past/Present/Future Parables

Octavia’s Parables :Parable of the Sower Podcast

What is your relationship to the stars?

What is your relationship to change?

What is your positive obsession?

What are your recurring dreams?

 

Tarot for the Wild Soul:

What am I being invited to come home to within myself?

How can I fully embrace this homecoming?

What am I being invited to release in order to do this?

What is supporting me in this sacred work?

Where am I on my Soul’s journey at this moment?

How am I being asked to be of service at this time?

 

Chani Nicholas:

Consider what you’d like to learn about yourself through this retrograde and set an intention to do so.

Watch what makes your blood boil, what makes you want to take shortcuts, and watch yourself when you want to take on extra projects.

 

More about me:

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Yoga & Meditation

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Parables of B – coming home to myself + New Moon Intentions

Alrighty – so today the situation is this – the Virgo New Moon is approaching. It will be exact at 7AM September 17th. I am setting my intentions for it now. This new moon will be in Virgo which is my 9th house in my chart.

The 9th house is the house of foreign travel, education, new ideas and exploring. Now – Virgo is ruled by Mercury – which falls in the 11th house in my chart – of society, the public and community. So as soon as I figured all of that out – I decided that being here might be a good way to state my intentions. I wasn’t going to make it a parable. But then I came in to see what the next prompt would be for me and it was this…

What am I being invited to come home to within myself?

JUICY. Juice juice juicy. So I’m bringing it all together mamis and papis. <<< LOL DK who they are but at this point when I write on here I feel like I am writing for the whole world and also writing for no one but myself. It’s beautiful really. I love that.

So basically – new moon in Virgo is going to activate my sector of education, foreign travel, new ideas and exploring. That is V V V V exciting. Also this new moon is a great time to set intentions. All new moons are but this one apparently is even better for that because being in Virgo, well Virgo is a practical sign. One of getting things done and doing things with a practical purpose.

Okay and also the Sun and Moon are squaring Saturn right now. So – Sun & Moon in my 9th house are squaring Saturn in my 1st house. The relationship between these two houses is showing the transition. I want to talk about all of this I’m just stating the facts.

1st house is the house of the self, the ego, the personality, the consciousness, ambition.

And Neptune is in Pisces where he likes to be – well what I mean is that he is co-ruler of Pisces so he has access to all of his natural elements there. This Neptune in Pisces falls in my 3rd house of communication, neighbors, local community, media, publishing, siblings. LOL it seems so random doesn’t it? The lists of stuff that fall in each house.

So Neptune being here apparently helps to figure out what is aligned with my values and what I want to create. I just have to say I am learning some these things from THIS ARTICLE which is helping me to make sense of what I have already gathered from my Astrology knowledge (beginner knowledge).

ALRIGHT!!! So I want to reflect on the following – what do I want to create and what is aligned with my values with regards to my education, foreign travel, exploring and new ideas. AND what is transitioning between myself, my ego, consciousness, ambition and personality and my education, foreign travel, exploring and new ideas.

AND I want to reflect on – what am I being invited to come home to within myself?

These all go together in ways. I read this from Gabrielle Bernstein – it is one of my intentions now – “I surrender to creative solutions.”

This is all of it. I also want to think about a few things that I want to build upon. I want to build habits and I want to enhance habits. I want to care for myself in deeper ways. I want to notice things more and embrace things more. I received these intentions this morning:

I surrender to what is. I am grateful for what’s here.

I love those. I also feel that I want to clear some things out of my life and I want to clear up some habits that are holding me back. So I want to have all of these things on the table and let myself write freely now. Watch the intentions come out of my fingertips and I will know when they are here.

I also asked the universe for a sign about something and the sign they gave me to look out for was a Penguin in a bowtie. LOL honestly. The Universe playing tricks on me. Or not. I don’t know. But I thought that was funny.

Right now I actually weirdly feel like I am reliving some of the pain of May and June. May and June was a very intense time of the year for me and actually a very intense time of my life. I feel like all of my fears were heightened and all of my frustrations were also highlighted about how those fears have held me back. I am willing to let them go and I want to let them go now. I faced having to let go of some things that were unfathomable to me up until that point. I faced having to speak up on my own behalf about things that were also unfathomable to me up until that point. I had to acknowledge how much pain I was holding on to from childhood and I also had to acknowledge how much power I had within me to reconnect to the child within me and listen to her and love her. I don’t think I noticed it, but it became clear to me in a few ways that there were people in my life who I really love, had deep relationships or long-lasting relationships with, and the ways in which they were mistreating me or had the capability to mistreat me were made obvious. It was painful.

I also feel like I want to clear out my schedule. I have been saying I have a deep desire to streamline my work life and also to get clear about what kind of work I want to do. I was looking for jobs today. I KNOW LOL not streamlining if I’m adding is it? LOLOL But it is. I am looking because I want to find something part time – to streamline my income. To make it more regular. To support me so that I can support my creative children. So I want to do that.

Habits that have been holding me back definitely include self-sabotage. I let myself get distracted and I let myself get away from what really lights me up by convincing myself that I need to do something else – based off of limiting beliefs that I am not good enough.

So I want to come home to the part of me that loves myself so deeply that I know that I am more than enough. I want to come back home to my deep faith in God and the Universe and my deep faith in my destiny and my ability to live in alignment with my truth. I am being invited to do that because I can see that there are many opportunities in my life to appreciate who I am and to realize the ease with which things are happening for me when my intentions are clear.

I am doing an intention setting ritual and meditation tomorrow with some special people. It marks the launch of a service called Meditation for You. I have intentions I set for this service as well. They will be added to those which I set for myself now.

Upon reflecting on this… I also want to say that I want to continue to enforce a habit of daily movement and daily yoga practice. As well as daily prayer. The new ones I want to integrate are Rest and Reading. I want to integrate them as regular and non-negotiable.

What excites me to think about – is that I want to create and dream with regards to my education and foreign travel. I am so excited to continue learning astrology – I want to complete the certificate and I want to be able to read people’s charts and use Astrology to help people understand themselves better. I want to be hired to go to parties, fundraisers, people’s houses – to do Astrology workshops and read people’s charts. I want to do individual readings.

I also want to create so much success with B. Create. , Two Can Do, Yoga and Meditation for You – all of these things make me feel so excited and there are so many ideas that flow through me when I am energetically engaged within these things. It is amazing.

I also want my Croatian Citizenship to come through. I want to get back to Ireland. I want to visit Croatia and Greece. I want to celebrate my birthday on a beach in Portugal or Croatia or Greece.

I want to live in Europe.

So here goes:

I surrender to what is.

I am grateful for what’s here.

I surrender to creative solutions.

I make time for rest.

I make time for reading.

I am willing to release self-sabotaging beliefs and behaviors.

I make space for opportunities for meaningful work.

I am open to receive opportunities for meaningful work.

I acknowledge the child within me.

I intend to treat myself with tenderness and love.

I am creating a beautiful European life, living in Europe and visiting European countries.

I am ushering in and inviting support in creating a unity and streamlining all of my creative endeavors – that they may align with my true soul’s purpose and allow me to serve the world.

I am ushering in abundance and creating wealth through my habits, my finances, my health, my self-care routine and my relationships.

YESSSS these are getting juicy now. Yes.

I am embracing the transition of my relationship between what my ego wants and what my desires are and my education and travel and ideas.

ALRIGHT.

I am embracing change. I am embracing the unfolding of my highest good.

I want to write about my wildest dreams of life. My wildest most beautiful dreamy life. I want to write about that. But I also want to be done.

So next time.

Talk soon,

 

B-

 

Octavia’s Parables :Parable of the Sower Podcast

What is your relationship to the stars?

What is your relationship to change?

What is your positive obsession?

What are your recurring dreams?

 

Tarot for the Wild Soul:

What am I being invited to come home to within myself?

How can I fully embrace this homecoming?

What am I being invited to release in order to do this?

What is supporting me in this sacred work?

Where am I on my Soul’s journey at this moment?

How am I being asked to be of service at this time?

 

Chani Nicholas:

Consider what you’d like to learn about yourself through this retrograde and set an intention to do so.

Watch what makes your blood boil, what makes you want to take shortcuts, and watch yourself when you want to take on extra projects.

Parables of B – Recurring Dreams

I’m feeling overwhelmed today. It was such a high this morning and now I feel like I’m on such a low. Too much. Too much too much, too too much. So I turned to the screen in a different way – turning to the screen in an internal way – this is the only form of cyber activity that allows me to go internal without withdrawing. It allows me to seek and to find and to embrace and unravel the inner workings of my internal landscape without having to feel like I need to be completely bare or feeling like I am completely disconnected from the medium through which I am engaging.

I noticed my breath changed as soon as I opened up the tab and typed in wordpress.com. I noticed that I felt more space. Sense of time suspended. Less pressure to get things done and to do things because somehow so long as I “get this done” in terms of this writing I am doing now, then I feel I have done everything for the day. There are certain things that fulfill me deeply and completely. And they are the stuff of my dreams.

What are your recurring dreams is the question I am on now. I also have added a new prompt to the bottom – so these I will continue to work through. Yes.

So … what are my recurring dreams? Well here’s the thing – recently I learned that Dreams are the stuff of the night. Daydreams are the stuff of the day. Obviously LOL – but here’s the context – I have been working through the Yoga Sutras by Patanjali. I am reading a translation and commentary by Sri Swami Satichananda. Reading through this has offered me context about how I define things for myself.

Everything comes from somewhere. I used to question everything … now I question somewhere.

Where is the place that all my everythings are coming from? I learned through the Sutras that there are 5 options basically… the 5 modifications of the mind. I need to pause this though… BECAUSE…

So dreams – they are connected to memories. This is through the Sutras. It says that memories come in two ways – during the night in sleep as dreams and during the day as daydreams.

Wow. So are all my daydreams and dreams actually memories of things past? How does this work… right? How?

Well here’s the thing – I can question that, I can question everything. Or I can question where I get everything from. That is what brings me back to the 5 modifications of the mind. One is right knowledge. Which comes from direct perception, inference or scriptural teachings.

So … it’s time to start questioning where these things come from… I have dreams yes but where do they come from?

Some of the dreams come from a source that is not scriptural, nor is it my direct perception or inference. Some of these dreams come from wrong perception, come from painful perception come from some other modifications that are not pure.

Ugh it’s a lot. I want to make sense of it all but I’m not in a sense making place right now. I’m in a place where I feel like the words need to fall out and they are just falling out of these fingers right now they are just dripping out and then some jumping out and others are creeping and crawling their way out. Some also feel like they are dragging their way out and even dragging their way back in like holding on almost as if they don’t want to come out.

I have a lot of dreams. I used to have a LOT of daydreams. Loads. But now I feel like I don’t. I feel distress in my body right now. I feel that I have become impatient with my dreams as if they aren’t allowed to exist because they haven’t come true. But what if they are memories?

Where does the definition of “dream” come from? See… what is the somewhere? What is the somewhere that I draw my context for what dreaming is…  I honestly feel like I have the context of dreaming in my head as 1. something that you experience when you sleep (which I feel like I almost never remember) or 2. some sort of goal or hope that you have for your life

So when I read that all memories are dreams – I feel like my somewhere meter is ticking and it’s going off saying… wow the place where you received the information you currently hold in your beliefs may not resonate as deeply as what you are reading now. Hmmm B.

So yes. Seeing dreams as memories and vice versa holds way more space for things to exist as they do. Every dream already exists… it has already happened at some point.

I like that. I want that because it relieves pressure.

I feel time pressure, space pressure, breath pressure, internal and external pressure. I wonder if the pressure comes through these words. Sometimes I feel like I can see it in the letters as I type these keys and press down quickly and sharply to get these letters and words out of my mind.

This morning I had the experience of leading two yoga classes. Beautiful. Absolutely beautiful and am delighted about it. That fulfills me deeply and fully.

Daydreams that I have recurrently seem to be a little bit like nightmarish memories coinciding with fears that history will repeat itself.

Night dreams I have recurrently – well there’s one I’ve had and it has been two aspects of the same idea. A lover. Someone that I actually know. In my dream though she is my lover – the first one that happened felt more like a physical lover and the second one felt more like an emotional and quality time type lover. The first time basically was crazy intensely sexual and the second time she felt like my girlfriend.

Was a little bit wild especially because of knowing exactly who this person is and wondering if I am supposed to do anything about it.

I want to tap into the store of abundant memories that I have. Abundant dream/memories. Dream = memory. That is something that will take processing but processing that I want to do because I want to expand my mind to embrace it.

Daydreams apart from the ^^ nightmarish things I mentioned also feel like maybe they aren’t dreams so much as thoughts that feel packed with desire to the point of desperation. I feel maybe I don’t allow enough space for daydreaming anymore.

Wow.

Space. Mars is in retrograde. Space and time and saying no and carving it out. Also I have been integrating new practices into my life. It’s felt amazing but maybe today it feels like a lot. I am putting something out into the world on Thursday. Maybe that feels like a lot too.

I hope it goes well. I am nervous and excited about it. I have daydreams about that actually. OMGSH… (oh my gosh)

So LOL ugh what was I going to say. This is what happens when I look away for a minute… please daydreams… I was having daydreams about … YESSSS YES okay!

So basically I have daydreams when something is aligned for me. Oh my goodness this is an actual epiphany coming out of my fingertips right now. After this I have to go for a walk. Alright so basically – if an opportunity presents itself to me and it’s right, usually pretty shortly after I accept it or in the process of being guided to accept it… ANDDD after I do accept it until it happens – I have very strong visions of myself doing that thing. Like actual DAY. DREAMS. of me in that thing doing the thing and how I’ll do it and what I’ll say etc etc etc. It’s so vivid and so flashy and so clear.

And I suppose I never realized it until now but I could see it. And I was being guided to accept that this was aligned and meant for me and I deserve it.

I wonder if it works the other way – that if I am not having daydreams about those things then they are not aligned for me? Hmmm that is curious and interesting to me.

Since I started my Ayurvedic protocol my body temperature regulation has been so much easier. I haven’t really felt a need to regulate my body temperature because it seems as though things have evened out. This past week I’ve been going a little mental with the routine and falling out of it a bit. I am feeling the affects of that today. I’ve been freezing but sweating all day. That used to be a common occurrence for me. But now it’s quite rare. Today I feel it.

I am starting my astrology certificate next week. Course 1. Wow. I am excited for that. I suppose I had an expectation that things would be a little more settled by now than they are. Yeah.

That’s a recurring daydream – expectations. LOL. The nightmarish kind.

I am willing to release any and everything that no longer serves. Including expectations. Including daydreams that come from the somewhere’s that do not serve me.

Dreams … that’s a different story. I feel less consciously involved in that. I haven’t played the piano in a while. Things come and they go. That is for sure.

More time for daydreaming. More prayer for dreaming.

Talk soon,

 

B-

 

** Photo taken by me of the beautiful Hilton Head, SC, USA.

Octavia’s Parables :Parable of the Sower Podcast

What is your relationship to the stars?

What is your relationship to change?

What is your positive obsession?

What are your recurring dreams?

 

Tarot for the Wild Soul:

What am I being invited to come home to within myself?

How can I fully embrace this homecoming?

What am I being invited to release in order to do this?

What is supporting me in this sacred work?

Where am I on my Soul’s journey at this moment?

How am I being asked to be of service at this time?

 

Chani Nicholas:

Consider what you’d like to learn about yourself through this retrograde and set an intention to do so.

Watch what makes your blood boil, what makes you want to take shortcuts, and watch yourself when you want to take on extra projects.

Parables of B – Positive Obsessions

So what is your positive obsession B?

ALRIGHT! Well I asked a friend this question because I thought it was so super interesting. I mean honestly as human beings – for me as a human being anyway – I find that I have tendencies, habits, things that I fall into. It’s like the mind – our mind is going to think no matter what we do, until I reach the ultimate Samadhi of course (yogi’s journey). But until then, I may as well direct and guide myself to build habits of thinking positive and beneficial thoughts.

So I love this question because it’s like – okay there is a tendency to become obsessed with things and so if that’s there – I may as well choose something to be obsessed with that is a positive influence in my life.

At the moment I would say my positive obsession is Astrology. But that boils down to a bigger topic – self-discovery and self-acceptance. Which I really feel boils down to my biggest positive obsession – understanding others and learning about others.

Yes. There is that – that is a big one. I love the idea of being able to sit down and have a conversation with someone and me being who I am and their being who they are – between us we are able to influence and learn from and support each other. But what I really love most is holding space for others, allowing them to be guided through conversation or through time and space by me.

When I was in middle school and high school I studied Latin. I think the biggest takeaway that I can see in my life now from all those years of study is that I love to write in the passive voice. Latin was where I really learned about active and passive voice.

I LOVE TO WRITE IN THE PASSIVE VOICE. I write newsletters for the collective that I dance with and I am constantly being corrected on my passive voice. I’m not sure why passive voice gets a bad rep. I love it. It’s so romantic to me.

It feels elegant like the way people used to speak back in the 17 and 1800s – a time period that I am clearly obsessed with. A positive obsession? Hmm… curious… I think yes.

So letting these things float off the fingertips, the preference is usually to write in passive voice whenever I can. It feels like an embellishment. I go back and fix things if they sound wrong or weird or the sentences are too long.

One of my interns told me that I speak in run on sentences. So when she used to take notes for our meetings she would write down my million thoughts as one sentence and then chop it all up LOL. (By the way I just separated that statement into two sentences haha!)

Wow. My team was so incredible honestly. Without them I don’t know if I’d be able to allow myself to dream as big as I am now. I mean I’ve always had huge dreams but with the execution and the skill and the teamwork and support that I’ve been given, so many new things have also come up that are connected to the seeds I had sown before these incredible people were a part of my life.

I am welcoming two new team members next week and I am very excited about that. The visioning continues.

I am weary of my schedule this fall. Things are not quite falling into place yet but I am concerned that there will be too  many commitments and not enough resources aka money. Not a positive obsession LOL

Here’s a positive obsession for sure – Two Can Do. Two Can Do feels like… my life’s work LOL but I know it’s not the only thing I will ever create. It feels like the first thing that has been created through me and that is the way I realized that I want to feel whilst in the creative process. Like I am being guided by something bigger than myself – to bring something into the world that is needed. Like a vehicle for divine creativity.

I am also positively obsessed with ice cream. LOL is it positive ? I feel like it is because it literally brings only joy into my life. Pure joy. Everything about it. I love it.

Positively obsessed … I love that. Reminds me of positive denial that I learned from Marianne Williamson in her book called the Law of Divine Compensation.

So I’m positively obsessed and in positive denial. Why the heck not?

Talk soon,

 

B-

 

** Photo was taken by my phone – on a good old selfie-timer! Love it! Hilton Head, SC.

 

Octavia’s Parables :Parable of the Sower Podcast

What is your relationship to the stars?

What is your relationship to change?

What is your positive obsession?

What are your recurring dreams?

 

Tarot for the Wild Soul:

What am I being invited to come home to within myself?

How can I fully embrace this homecoming?

What am I being invited to release in order to do this?

What is supporting me in this sacred work?

Where am I on my Soul’s journey at this moment?

How am I being asked to be of service at this time?